more like pigeon with insomnia ?!
i feel like i never sleep, and am always sleepy, if that makes any sense.
i want to go to bed at like eleven, but then if i do, i stay awake until like 2 or three in the morning, just reading. stupid books. i used to read books to try to fall asleep but now i just keep reading them. turning pages into the wee hours of the morning, often regretting it to myself when there is not enough coffee in the world to keep up with my small son.
and then, you know what … i do it all over again the next night/day.
i stay up late. then get up early with lots to do, and am tired … but stay up.
it’s some sort of mental issue, i swear. like … i don’t want to miss moments i could have. so i stay awake to experience more of them. even though it is exhausting. and i never learn. i just … keep doing it. happily. sort of.